Bentley was my best friend threw this. He was my shoulder to cry on, he was the only one there to listen to me over and over, he sat with me all night with no fuss. Yes he had no choice, but if he did I think he would have been by my side anyways. Our family and friends were around with support also, but I would have never made it threw this with out Jeremy's little brother.
My son Jeremy's 1st birthday was may 9,2012. We celebrated it with a small get together at his grave and lit a cupcake. And his aunts did a balloon release for him. Next year we will be doing more, we were just in the hospital with Bentley because he decided he wanted to be our support threw our hard times and come early.
Bentley was my best friend threw this. He was my shoulder to cry on, he was the only one there to listen to me over and over, he sat with me all night with no fuss. Yes he had no choice, but if he did I think he would have been by my side anyways. Our family and friends were around with support also, but I would have never made it threw this with out Jeremy's little brother.
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May 3,2011 Our second son arrived into this world very unexpectedly. I woke up at 7am. Very bad cramping nothing stopped it. I took a shower ate and drank a lot of water. Nothing even eased it. I was 35 weeks pregnant. We know something just wasn't correct.. I went to the hospital. I sat there from about 3pm to about 7.30 pm.. They told me that my uterus was to far up to even check and that I was not having real contractions. So I was sent home with no reason to the pains. At 8pm my "fake" pains became absolutely unbearable. I was crying and shaking threw every pain. And than my water broke. I knew it was that but considering I was just sent home from the hospital my family easily convinced me that I simply was in to much pain to control my bladder that I just peed my pants.. So I changed my close. and sat on my chair and got threw the pains one at a time. About 8.15 I decided I couldn't deal with the pains anymore and was going to return to the hospital. As everyone was getting ready to walk out the door.. I ran to the bathroom to get sick [which I never did actually throw up I just got VERY hot] At 8.21 I was on my hands and knees the paramedics were called and I could see both of them but they could not get the stretcher to me. So they were walking towards me to walk me over to the stretcher.. Well I sat up on my knees and all of a sudden I bent over very fast to reach for my son. I pulled him out, removed his sack and rubbed his back to stimulate his lungs to breath. All of a sudden he let out a huge cry. Daddy and the paramedics that were all in the door way were in shock and awe at what they just witnessed. Me all calm delivering my own child. Inside I was a wreck complete panic stricken but I had to stay calm and focus because I was the only one that knew what I was doing. I also had to keep my father & the baby's father calm.. So we returned to the same hospital that sent me home. Not by choice but that's where the ambulance took us.
After we got there one of the nurses responded "that's one way to do it". We got two full birthing rooms. One for me & one for Bentley. He was considered a "dirty baby" only because he was born at home. He was not allowed in the nursery with other babies and if he was he was in a incubator. I was than transferred to a new room that we only stayed in for two days which I took full care of Bentley. He had not one issue with functioning in this world. So we were allowed to go home. Day 3 of his life we had a doctors appointment. His temp was only at 93*. We were asked to take him to be hospitalized. That broke my heart. I was a COMPLETE wreck. But we went to the hospital on May 6. We got his temp up to 96* by the time we got there by wrapping him a ton. and then as soon as we were admitted they got his temp up to 98*. Now he has to be fed and changed then placed in his incubator to sleep. They are dropping it by one degree every six hours. And making sure he keeps his temp. they started off at 91* and want it to be able to drop to 72* with him keeping temp than he can be out a full day and keep temp to go home. As of right now we are sitting at 80* and he is holding his temp perfect!!!! I am sure I left a lot out and will probably post another belong with more info. Especially if asked. We will let you know what the next few days consist of.. So I have been in the hospital for three days. I have been told I have toxemia. Here is a web site that lays out what exactly toxemia is http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001900/ I do not know a ton about it but I know It could harm me & my child badly even cause death. The only cure for toxemia is to deliver my child. my major symptoms are:
If anyone feels they could ease my worries or help me in any way please let me know. http://www.facebook.com/?ref=tn_tnmn#!/pages/Young-Moms-YOUnite/228619177174986
This is normally a youtube blog. But I love these mommies and just because I rather not face the camera or do not have time & resources to does not mean I have to be absent from these what so ever. When they post a new topic I will simply add it to the bottom of this list. Please join us. 1. Introduction -I am Sarah and 20 years young. I am a stay at home mom still with my childrens father. We are soon getting married. We have two children. Jeremy he was born May 9, 2011 and took his last breath September 3, 2011. And our second child Bentley will join us any minute now. 2. Support and Living Situation -We live on our own and have with a little help in between housing situations since I was 16 years old. We have tons of support no matter what we need. 3. Relationships -My relationships with our familys have faded in and out. We have gotten closer to our parents and further away from most of our siblings. Our friends have pretty much been placed on the back burner. We all have children now. It is wonderful to see then when we can. Me and Johnny my childrens father have gotten a lot stronger. We are each others back bones. We put each other in the worst possible place and force each other to grow out of them. It has made us who we are now. 4. Government Assistance -I have only ever received Medical and Food. I think that the programs are very good for people that actually need it, but I have seen parents force more children in to our world just to get there benefits raised. That is not right. I live in Ohio. We have to work for any government assistance we want. Not every place here enforces it very well though. They city I am currently living in actually is helping parents find jobs instead of placing them on cash assistance and you work for your food and cash at a government building if they cannot find you work. 5. Breastfeeding vs Formula -My first child was bottle fed with mostly drop in bottles. It was convent for us and also not much work. But we are going to try to breast feed as long as possible with our new child because it reduces the risk of SIDS and the medical benefits from it are amazing. 6. Birth Control -I was not protected before either of my children. That was a choice we decided to make. Our family was ready to be started. We will be breastfeeding and taking a mini pill after the baby gets here. And we are very aware that birth controls fail very often. Those mommies should not be judged. If anything they need more support than a planned pregnancy. 7. Diapers -Jeremy was a pampers baby. He was never tried on anything else. They were perfect for our family. Bentley will be started on pampers in the hospital [that is what they provide] Cloth diapered when we get home. We have mostly g-diapers [gnappy, gpant] to try out. 8. Past/Future Plans -My plans have not really changed very much. I planned to have a family get into college and than get into my work force. Everything is going as planned. My big difference is I wanted to be a preschool teacher now I am going to go to school for ultrasound tech. In five years I see my self in the work force working at either a Dr office or a hospital or both. 9. SAH (stay-at-home) Mom vs. Working Mom -I am a SAHM but looking for work. Well work at home. The extra money would be wonderful but my partner understands why I feel that one of us should stay at home. 10. ME TIME! -I do not really get "me" time and if I do I spend it in the shower... Its my only way to relax. I much rather have family time. I would be nothing with out them. 11. Crib sleeping vs. Co-sleeping -I rather co-sleep simply because it is easier and said helps the babys heart keep its rate with mine. My First was co-slept at first and moved when he slept threw the night to a crib. 12. Dealing with Negativity -I do not feel like the should or even need to be dealt with. Smile & walk away. You are your own, you make parenting what you want it to be. If you are trying your best than no matter what anyone says you are a GREAT parent. You can not let them win & bring you down. 13. Santa? -He is real.. What are you questioning.. Ohh okay we are going to teach that the characters are real.. It is a part of growing up the magical world that seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing. |
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